New Post Because I Love Her Work...

i am really sorry for the last copule of stupid posts, for whoever read them...and thank you dear Maigre for your lovely, sweet comment. i so appreciate it, it means alot. Wish i could have kept it here.

Didn't want to contaminate Jodi Picoult's wonderful book and song with my horrible ramblings..........

PS Sam, if you ever read this blog, i am so sorry for the horrible things i said. i love you soooooooo much!!!!!!!

Oh, Hai

Peri   Oh, my Dear Peri i so wish there were something i could do to help you feel better.. as you already know, i know how bad the pain can get...i don't mean to try to know how you feel, i would never try to do that, i just wish i could do something, anything, to help you feel a tiny bit better. i hate to see a dear friend hurting so.
   i loved the "Life of Brian " clip...thank you for cheering me up, my sweet.

Mich   Your blog, what can i say, was amazing, i  so understand your place in the "hierarchy" of it all. The "Mum thing"...so me!....And at almost 50, how sad is that!  Where does it end.....? i am on the same level as you!

Sara  Thank you so much for commnting. Yes, i have ridden, for years, although it had been almost E i g h t   years since last Monday, since i had ridden. It rocked to be "back in the saddle again." If only i could continue!

Clip, Clop...

   i actually got to go riding today!!! What a joy!   Shout out to Mr. Steve Williams, a dear friend of my Dad's, for letting this happen. You, Sir, are a Jewel. If my Riding Buddy wasn't right there with me, i know he was watchIng and enjoying the ride. And Pam, Uncle Elden and the "Natural Rider", Olivia, thank you so very much!


Mich  My beautiful, tiny Mermaid, loved your stories and pictures from the shore...you are just adorable and oh, so pretty! i loved the blue hair! i am so sorry the last couple of days were rough, i am certian you have "recovered" now and are back to being the tiny Faeire we all know you to be. Thank you so much for the  sweet comment you left on the blog...you mean the Universe to me! How are things with the "boy"?

  Marigre  i am really sorry about Physics...would it make you feel any better that i am in awe of anyone who even understands that "stuff"? Probably not...Bravo for the shopping trip!   Another area in which you have so much more courage than i. Please try not to go "missing", okay? Ha, easy for me to say!

   xoxo to All

....like i ain't got nothing but this roll of the dice."

   So. Yeah. Hi Everybody.

   i "decided" to take a litle "vacay".  In   the   "Looney Bin".  Yep, t h a t 's   right.  Only i could land myself there rather than say....the beaches of Maui or something.


  So, something in me finally cracked, i guess, amidst all the pressure of being told how wonderful i am for being here and how much i'm helping my Mom and aren't i great...not.  (i think maybe one of the final straws was the Bishop of Mom's ward saying to her, about me "i love that girl, i want to see her out to church.")  Now, he is a wonderful man and has done so much for Dad and Mom, but i am not here to be his or anyone else's project...and i know i am reading WAY too much in to what people say and i sound mean and horrible, but that's just how it feels inside.......

Anyhow, a few nights ago, i guess i decided to "show" everyone what a horrible person i am and that's right, look out, you don't want a n y t h i n g  to do with me, so i went waaaaay overboard with the ETOH and cut up my arm.   Reward?   Stiches and a ticket to Psychoville.

 Well, the one good thing that happened was i met alot of really sweet, funny, wonderful people while i was there...it has always been that way.....

         'Kay, so long story short.

          Hope you lovelies are all well.  Please take care, loves you!

   PS  Mich  Your blog and pictures are hilarious...thank you so very much for cheering me up!   Maigre   i am so very sorry things are so bad. Please snail mail or e-mail as soon as you want...i would love to hear from you.  That goes for any other interested snailers!