Thursday, March 31, 2011

It's So Amazing

         Just Beautiful.

Something A Bit Less Dramatic...'Cause You Are All So Sweet

    Thanks for all your lovely comments.      i <3 You!

           This was a great show!  i love "Abdul"   "It's over the counter...you know...from Iran".
  "Iran's cool".       

               xoxoxo,
                  tracy

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

FAT, FAT, FAT!!!!!!!!!

   i have officially GAINED almost 3 pounds sinced i posted my super fat weight. i am gross and disgusting. i look 12 months pregnant. i hate me.

        Well, at least you have been spared any more of my stupid stories and videos...for now.

       Bring on the 'axies.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Some More Stuff...Are You Bored With Me Yet?

   4.   i am fasinated with Judahism and Israel.  i think this started in grade school. i read the "All of a Kind Family" series of books by Sidney Taylor, they are just lovely. They tell the story of a family, 5 daughters and a little brother and thier parents, living in New York City just before and during WWl.  i loved these books. Not only were they tales of the children growing up and their adventures, but much was included about Jewish Holidays, Holy Days , the Sabbath and Jewish life in general.  i loved the way the author incorperated some Herbew along with English translation in to some of the Prayers and recitations for different occasions. It was beautiful. Then i "graduated" to different authors such as Chaim Potok, Namoi Ragen, Philip Roth, etc, always learning more, always so intrigued. i have attended services several times and really liked it. i have heard a Rabbi speak on two occasions as well as Chaim Potok, so interesting. My dream is to visit Israel and find a Native Born Israeli (a "Sabra") to show me around. Or someone (Hi Sara!) who has lived there a long time.
    Last summer, in Utah of all places, i had the great good fortune to see an adorable group of young Israeli's perfom music and dance. i was in Heaven. They were adorable. They are called "Tzofim".  Their group was touring the United States. i will alwasy treasure that evening.  Aren't they cute? :)
     Doug Cotler...Love him always. A lovely video, but his music is so much more, wish i could find a better one!

  5.   i am afraid of grasshoppers. Seriously.  Spiders, snakes...no problem. But grasshoppers...EWWWWWW!!!!!!!   Once, many, many years ago, i was driving along and glanced down at my leg...there IT was..a huge grasshopper, riding along, just like he belonged there. PANIC mode ensued. i finally found a place to pull off the road and got a magazine go "Flick" him off, out the open door. It remended me of the scene from the "Brady Bunch", when they go to Hawaii and "Peter" wakes up to find a triantula on his chest. Yeah. Kinda like that.Ha, ha...more Doctors!    Sorry, video is out of place...

           Thanks, Loves!

Monday, March 28, 2011

The Versatile Blogger Award....With No Pretty Picture...Part One

         1. Thank the person who loved you enough to bestow this gift.
         2. Share seven things about yourself.
         3. Bestow this honor on to 10 newly discovered or followed Bloggers-in no particular order-who are fantastic in some way.
         4. Drop by and let your ten new friends know your admiration.

         Thank you darling Mich and Lottie for this Award!


         1.  i am obsessed with Medicine. (Really???). i am not sure when this interest began, however, it seems like it was about 15 years ago, when i started following Medical School amd Medical Blogs and reading just about any Doctor-Patient books i could get my hands on. i have been interested in Health related careers since i can remember, but this obsesion is more recent and of course leads me to think "Why did i have to go crazy when i was 18 and why couldn't i have been really, really smart???".  Well, destiny stepped in, i guess.

  Okay, i know Med School isn't all fun and games, but i thought these were funny!

       2.   i had a "Brush with Greatness" one time.     When we lived in Connecticut, hubby worked at the Mark Twain House in Hartford (gorgeous!).   He called me one afternoon and said "The Boss is here, you might want to come down here. You could get to see him".  Of course, i didn't get it at all, at first. So his boss was there...so what.  "No!  The Boss- Bruce Springsteen!"  Doh!  She f i n a l l y gets it!  i zip down to The House, (we lived in West Hartford), and sure enough, The Boss was taking a tour of the House, along with his lovely wife.   After the tour, he was gracious enough to pose on the porch with some of his adoring fans. (No, Hubby was not among them.)  i stood right behing him!  Close enough to touch him...of course i didn't.   Sigh. He was really sweet.   Hubby said "He was really short".  i am not even sure i said anything to him, i was sooo starstruck!   i have the photographic proof, which i treasure. It's from a computer, so it's a bit fuzzy, but that's okay!   By the way, i have officially adopted West Hartford as "my Hometown".
 3.   i LOVE bats.  In fact, there is one hanging out front, by the door, as i write. And yes, i realize it is March.   That is his permanet home.  He fell down a while back and i finally get him back home,.  Feels much better now.   i have a collection of bats, mostly stuffies, unfortunately, no place to display them, so they are in a bag. So very wrong!    This will be remedied!!  When we go with my parents to their home in St. George, very Sourthen Utah, the bats come out at twilight and it is soooo cool, i love it.  My niece, Diana, got to see 750, 000 bats fly out from under a bridge on a boat trip on a river in Texas where she lives...WOW!
                   

        Okay, i am worn out!

             However, i hereby nominate:
                      Shauna
                      Diana
                      Koala
                      M
                      Layla
                      Emry
                      Mia
                      sarainisrael

                              i don't know 10 people who haven' done it!

                                         Love you!       
   PS i must REALLY love bats, as you get TWO videos of a bat!                             

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Yes, You Do Know Her.....



      Last post so serious...time for some humor.  Now, if only i knw what she was singing!

            i should go do something useful......

                xoxoxo,
                     tracy

Well, No One Ever "Accused" me of Being Cheery...A Book Review...Surprise!

    This video may be kind of hard for some of you to watch...however the book, "Autobiography of an Execution" is so very important. It is excellent, it really touched my heart and i learned so much about so called "justice".

         

          Thanks for watching,

                      Love, tracy

Friday, March 25, 2011

Thursday, March 24, 2011

...and That Water Thingy in the Background is Cool


      i just finished this book a while back. It is sooo good, just amazing. Highly recomened!   i am so sad it's over, i feel like i have lost some "friends".  yes, i am crazy. (Thanks ever so much to Saradoc for telling me about it!).

       Welcome new followers, you make me feel so happy!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Just Put Me "Six Feet Under"

    i love this video and song. Best series ever!

     i feel pretty breakable these days.  And FAT. Super fat. GAINED weight. i cannot go to Utah in May like this...i WILL not.  Must lose at least 10 pounds. If i write it here, it must happen...right, right? 

    i am broken.

            xoxoxo,
                tracy

Sunday, March 20, 2011

"......and I've Been Funnier Than Cool With The Lines..."

  Me:   i got some new eyedrops. Be careful though. They have menthol in them They give this realy COOL feeling at first.  Then your nose kind of hurts a little....

 Hubby:  Are you sure they're eyedrops?

      Leading me to believe he thinks maybe i am putting nosedrops or something else in my eyes......

                   Loves,
                       tracy

                                                               *this product brought to you by the adorable Mich  :)

Saturday, March 19, 2011

You're not in Med Skool anymore.....

     This scene ....well, it's just funny........What's wrong with what the Physican is wearing...?


          So....trying to be positive....there are some (many!) trees here with gorgeous white blossoms...the daffodils are blooming....yesterday, it was almost hot...for me, anyway.

         Hubby is still down...and it seems true...we can't win...in the money dept, job area, even the dogs have conspired against us...(i won't go into the messy details).  i wish just once, something would go right.  i know, i am being whiney and actually, we are fortunate in many wasy...it's just hard to see it sometimes, when so much seems to be falling in our laps that is utter c@ap.  My folks...my folks, well it just makes me soooo sad. They both are in seriously bad health and need help sooo badly -but i need to be here, for now, to chauffer Sam.    Ugh, sorry. i'm depressing myself even more......

           Thank you, new followers....i will try to write something worthy of you, sometime.

                   xoxoxo,
                      tracy

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Ping Pong, Ping Pong!!

    Okay, so, this was the clip i ment to put up!

Pass the Lighter...or the Ping Pong Paddle

     Thank you all for the lovely comments.  You make me feel so good!   :)

     So, today is Match Day.  i don't know when it was that i first got so fascinated with it, but here we are. Maybe it is just another reminder that i somehow missed my call and if only, if only i hadn't gone crazy and were smart, i c o u l d  have been a Doctor. Yeah, right.  So, the beautiful Sara is Matching today.  Hope you get the Match of your dreams, dear Sara.  Oh, yes, what is the Match?  Sara sent me the most hilarious cartoon, wish i knew how to post it...However, Match Day is when all the Fourth Year Medical Students find out where they will be doing their Residencies. It is a huge deal, i imagine. Anyway......

   Did anyone ever watch this show. It is soooo funny. i loved it. i so wish it would come out on DVD.

   Today is also Sam's half Birthday!   Well, not exactly half, but because his middle name is Patrick and we chose the name after our dear friend, Father Patrick...well, St. Partick's Day!

            xoxoxoxo.
                  tracy
                            

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

The Numbers........

   119.6     FAT   i don't think i will post these unless my weight gets remarkably better. Annnnnd, i know that means a major lifestyle change.  Am i up for that?   Help.  Please.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

So Then i Thought.....

      i really need to lose a bunch of weight.       Here are my goals.   115, 110, 105.......    i am 5'5.5" tall, i measured myself at the Dr. Appointment. In my old age, i have lost 1/2 an inch, but i already suspected that...BOO!!! What is my current weight?   Not ready to reveal that yet.  Plus, due to my weird eating habits, it bounces all around, everywhere. MUST GET CONTROL!!!!!!!!!

  Each morning, i wake up in full panic mode. i want to stay in bed and can this week, as Sam is on break, however, that does not help the panic...so i get up, take a pill and go back to bed, and wait for the panic to gradually diminish.  And wait. And wait.   Then, depending on what weird or horrible dreams i have been having, i either stay a while or head for the tread...such a poet...

          And now, hubby is home and i must say....Shalom!

i Wish i Knew What To Say.....

      i know, this blog is becoming one big video show.  But the more i think about it, the funnier this episode gets...except for the emo moments, of course.

     There is so much i want to say...i just can't seem to put it in words.  If anyone has any suggestions, ways to help me get started...i'd really apprecite the help.

                  Thanks.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

"Landslide Part Deux"

    The Mirrored Image......no obsession here....   ; )  A sensitive, emotional "Santana".....one of the reasons i love it so...besides loving the song.

Up and Down...One gone....

     Yesterday, i "officially weighed TEN ugly, horrible, disgusting pounds more than my low from last summer. It was just awful, the worst feeling, you know? FATTY, McFatso!  Thankfully, this morning i lost a couple, not without "help".  i keep thinking i should post my height and weight, maybe that would  do something about my lack of discipline...help keep me in line...who knows.......but the way "it" bounces around lately.....i dunno.

  Now i come here and my sweet "Glee" vid has beem removed...Grrrrrr.   i wonder how many other vids will dissapear along the way...yes, abandonment issues....in many forms...even videos.  SIGH.

            Well, anyway, hope you all are having a good weekend,
                      xoxo, tracy

Thursday, March 10, 2011

"Landslide"

    Because this was just...so...touching.  Sorry for the poor quality!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

And then...She wrote.....

    So much to say...and it's all unorganized...
             i feel so bad for husband who is so terribly upset  over things at work, our $ situation, lack of sleep, feeling sick all the time, depression, somehow believes he's "lost his family"...(yep, i don't really understand that last one and it breaks my heart)...i just don't know what to do for him....And i hate this helpless feeling, everyday, his sadness...i am so worried about him.

   i am sooo fat. FAT.   i restrict all day, then, it's, well, all Hell breaks loose.  i know what i'm doing wrong, so what is wrong with me?  Why can't i just stop?  And, i am just so ugly. Seriously. Yuck i am not just saying that so someone might say something nice. It is the TRUTH.

        Well, ...'i guess i've said enough, ive said too much..."

                         Love you all  Sorry i am such a DOWNER.  xoxoxo

i will write something...sometime....

       i guess i'm trying to cheer myself up...

            Hope you like these  :)

Hili Yalon!



      So much i want to say, but can't find the words.  Welcome new followers, thank you so much for being here. i will find a way to follow your blogs too!

                  Much Love

Sunday, March 6, 2011

"Courage"



    'Cause i'm feeling sad and extra scared these days. i need this...and hope you enjoy it.

                  xoxoxo

Friday, March 4, 2011

Hili Yalon

   Oh, she is the most amazing, beautiful, stunning, mysterious actresses e v e r!    i wish so much i knew about computers, so i could bring this over to the blog, but if you get a chance (or could explain to me how it's done!), here are some scenes from her movies.

            Youtube   Hili Yalon  Showreel

                 i have only seen one of her films, one of my absolute favorite movies "For My Father"...
          The scenes at :48, 2:40 and 4:02 are from that.

    Thank you soooo much for reading!

               XOXOXO

Thursday, March 3, 2011

i Has Followers!!!!

    Can't believe it!   4 followers!   Thank you Ladies sooo much!   Now i know there are blogs like with 286 followers, however, they deserve them...i am just so happy anyone is here!

    Wanted to write something a little more upbeat, as my entries have all had such a downer tone.

    Our son, Sam.  i am sooo very proud of him!  He just started his first semester of collegs and is doing great!   The years from Kindergarten to 12th grade...well, i'll just say, they were really, really hard on him, on all of us, however, he really seems made for the college world...yay!     And, he's taking aerobic's!    (Yes, they call it that-my cousin questioned the name..."Isn't that kind of Jane Fonda?"   Nope, it is really called that). It is supposed to be a beginner's class, but the instructor really kicks their Butts!  Zumba, Step, Kick Boxing, Ab Work....

  I don't need to say, i could learn alot from Sam!  :)

          Hope you are all having a great Thursday...i get to go to the Doctor...UGH!!!!  (Appt. had to be rescheduled.......here come the weigh-in......GAH!!!

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

"rehab diaries"

   Found these quotes in a book i am reading. So true. So me.

      "We are the flawed daughters who need to be hidden away.We are the crazy Berthas secluded in the attic. "

     "I am a secret burden, I have fucked up undeniably, and my parents are ashamed of me...They claim this isn't so."


     i love my parents so very dearly and know they love me too.  However, the hurt and horrible dissapointment i have caused them can never be denied nor earased.  i only wish it could be so.