Gah. In just over an hour i have to leave to go to the Psych and confess that i really screwed up this past week, concerning the things i was supposed to be improving upon. And, yes, i am scared. because i have been kicked out on one memorable occasion. And threatened with no therapy for "misbehaving" from another PsychMD....So....um, yes, i do have trust "issues". This is only the third time i have seen this particular shrink.And no, i don't want to "lose" him. Spoken like a true BPD. My only saving grace is that last time he did mention that he "....can't tell me what to do." Or something like that.
i hate being a FAILURE!!!!!!!!!!!
You're not a failure so don't feel bad. The best step towards being truly happy is confidence in yourself, really. Good luck today at your therapist.
ReplyDeleteYOU ARE NOT A FAILURE. You're trying, and that's what counts!!!
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Also, the psych is being paid to listen to you talk about how you think you failed (even if you did not fail, because you're fabulous and you couldn't fail if you tried). And thus he should listen good, and tell you that you haven't screwed up so bad you can't try again. (We all screw up--shite happens, right?)
ReplyDeleteDid your mp3 player work?? I forgot to ask you when you said you got the package... I hope it did. ;)
xoxoxox
Trying is what matters, good luck today with the therapist. They're there to help you not judge you :)
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