.....you have gained a ton of weight when, among the things your Mom ordered, for you comes a fancy Calorie Counter and Fitness Log and a less fancy set of sheets to fill out for the same reason. i have no words. That i feel appropriate to write, that is! How about Sheeeeeeeeeet!
So, life here in the Gateway to Nevada goes on ....today was kind of an off day for me ...stayed in bed until after 11:30am, while my dilegent Mom went to church at 10:00am....well, we all know who is the Sinner/Slacker in this house!
Don't know what to write ....just so very dissapointed in myself...NO, that is wrong. So ASHAMED of my self...willpower, what the fvck is that, i seem to have buried that with any dreams i may have had. Dead and gone. i HATE the big FAT fatty i have become, however, i know if it ment that much to me, i would obviously DO something. i drink the etoth to forget about what a stupid, ugly Sh#t i am.....then eat, and here is the disgusting result.
And to face another day of me is sickening.
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Thank You Mich, For The Award...
i am honored to write about 7 of the things that make me happy...if i don't finish on thiss post...to be continued!
1. Chris, my hubby. Especially when he tells me about something ridiculious, hilarious or just plain absurd that happens to him as a teacher. And believe me, there are many! He is am amazing husband and storyterller. <3 Honey.
2. Sam, our son. he is delightful, funny and smart beyong belief. Now if we could just get him to emerge from his cave...kidding. i love when he makes witty and clever, intellent remarks to me. He sent me a wonderful, funny e-mail (i am at my Mom's ) that i treasure. Love you, my dear Son.
3. These adorable kids. i just want to take them all home with me. The song at 2:14 makes me want to cry as i has the great good fortune to see them perfom about 1 1/2 years ago and i fear i will not ever see them again. Anyhow, i love them! Umm, oops, video landed at the top, sorry, better early than never!
4. Losing weight. 'Nuff said.
5. This video...Best ever! Get to it how ever you can!
6. Another video i love this song so much...it reminds me so much of things lost, but i love it so much still...lister to the lyrics...and the movie so sad.
7. Collie puppies!
i'm not sure who to pass this on to...seems like almost all the people i know have had it give to them, but i will try....In the Pink, A Beer for the Shower, Chief (Shauna) Phillips, Diana Hobbs. ...oh, dear, i will try to think of more, my brain is frazzled!
Love you! PS Awwww, they put the edited version of the "Rock Star" song up...booooo!
1. Chris, my hubby. Especially when he tells me about something ridiculious, hilarious or just plain absurd that happens to him as a teacher. And believe me, there are many! He is am amazing husband and storyterller. <3 Honey.
2. Sam, our son. he is delightful, funny and smart beyong belief. Now if we could just get him to emerge from his cave...kidding. i love when he makes witty and clever, intellent remarks to me. He sent me a wonderful, funny e-mail (i am at my Mom's ) that i treasure. Love you, my dear Son.
3. These adorable kids. i just want to take them all home with me. The song at 2:14 makes me want to cry as i has the great good fortune to see them perfom about 1 1/2 years ago and i fear i will not ever see them again. Anyhow, i love them! Umm, oops, video landed at the top, sorry, better early than never!
4. Losing weight. 'Nuff said.
5. This video...Best ever! Get to it how ever you can!
6. Another video i love this song so much...it reminds me so much of things lost, but i love it so much still...lister to the lyrics...and the movie so sad.
7. Collie puppies!
i'm not sure who to pass this on to...seems like almost all the people i know have had it give to them, but i will try....In the Pink, A Beer for the Shower, Chief (Shauna) Phillips, Diana Hobbs. ...oh, dear, i will try to think of more, my brain is frazzled!
Love you! PS Awwww, they put the edited version of the "Rock Star" song up...booooo!
Monday, February 6, 2012
"Your Usual Chores, John Boy?"
Feeling a bit better....thank you all for your kind and lovely comments, i really do appreciate all the thought that went in to each of them and you all mean so much to me. You are really wonderful people!
Spent the day taking Mum on errands...she seems to be doing okay, but is starting to have bad knee pain again, hopefully the Pain Clinic can help, i hate to see her having such a bad time. Me, i am basically lazy, just doing some chores around the house "Your usual chores, John Boy?" Not really much interesting to write about. Oh, dear, i am boring!
Met up with my sweet cousin Lise and my really nice Aunt Dorothy on Saturday, that was so nice to see them, i hardly ever see my Aunt. She runs a cat santurary...i admire her for what she does and finding her "life calling". She also volunteers at a bird refuge. i want to find that kind of life...she seems to happy and satisfied.
Welll, bye for now, loves....hope i have't already posted this video...oh well, it's funny enough for a second go 'round.....
Spent the day taking Mum on errands...she seems to be doing okay, but is starting to have bad knee pain again, hopefully the Pain Clinic can help, i hate to see her having such a bad time. Me, i am basically lazy, just doing some chores around the house "Your usual chores, John Boy?" Not really much interesting to write about. Oh, dear, i am boring!
Met up with my sweet cousin Lise and my really nice Aunt Dorothy on Saturday, that was so nice to see them, i hardly ever see my Aunt. She runs a cat santurary...i admire her for what she does and finding her "life calling". She also volunteers at a bird refuge. i want to find that kind of life...she seems to happy and satisfied.
Welll, bye for now, loves....hope i have't already posted this video...oh well, it's funny enough for a second go 'round.....
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Bad Day
Heh. Maybe i will stay in bed all day tomorrow. At lest 'til my mom comes to see if i m alive or not...(who's betting on the not?) i just HATE myself so badly so much. ANNNNNNND i know why...........................................................i am a loser of the worst kind.i cut my arm tonight. Nothing to jounal about,unfourtaetly............stupid.
i amFAT beyong belief. Yet, still. People still want to se me and i want to hide under my dad's desk, honestly, that's how ashamed i am....FAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTT basket case. SHIT.
i amFAT beyong belief. Yet, still. People still want to se me and i want to hide under my dad's desk, honestly, that's how ashamed i am....FAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTT basket case. SHIT.
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